Fear of falling? Or flinging? Something.
Mild trigger warning? It’s probably not an issue unless you’re reading blogs while on top of high buildings or ladders, so don’t do that.
A friend was talking about their TOTALLY NORMAL fear of heights/being pushed off of heights, which is not at all unusual and probably a really good survival trait, and it got me wondering if anybody else does the thing I do. That thing being, feeling a weird complulsion like any second you’re going to step off of the ledge or ladder or building? And then you back away from the edge, because eek, what if I do it?
It’s a suicidal thing because I know what that feels like (boo knowledge!). I don’t know what it is, but I somewhere got the idea that other people get that feeling too, and now I’m not sure if that’s so or if I just made it up. I’m pretty imaginative. In my misspent youth I made up a sequel to one of my favourite books and apparently fanfic’d it so thoroughly in my head that I was sure it existed and I had read it. And there is now a sequel to said book, but NOT THE ONE I REMEMBER.
So basically I’m an unreliable narrator of my own life who might want to leap off buildings. Yay?
