flying through clouds of uncertainty on wings of existential dread
Or have you totally given up by now?
It’s been a lot, you guys. Work exploded in my face and you know how they say no one’s requiring you to work 12 hours a day 6 days a week but there’s this intense unspoken pressure to do it because you’re the only one who can do your job and other people are working even more?
Normally I do a little better job of protecting my limits but that did not really happen this time and I spiraled really badly. Like, intense sobbing at work multiple times a day sometimes barely feeding myself too panicked to even take 15 minute breaks spiraled.
I also had stopped taking my glucosamine/chondroitin/vitamin D supplement a while back after we realized that wasn’t what was up with my knees. I didn’t necessarily mean to stop, it does no harm and potential good and I know I need the vitamin D for sure, but it also tastes like berry flavored ass and requires a trip to Costco, so it was easy to just kind of drift out of the habit. Soooo I was overworked and over stressed and had no time to go to the gym or eat decently and vitamin D deficient so yeah, hi depressive episode, you suck.
Paper dolls have progressed not at all right now, but I did finish knitting my VERY FIRST SWEATER a while ago and never found the energy to post it so:
The pattern is Crumb by Andi Satterlund on Ravelry and if you’re an 18/20 like me you do not need to make the 3X, it’s just a little too roomy around the chest and arms. Trust her measurement chart, it’s great.
More pretty soon, I have a little hat to show off and then hopefully I’ll have started doing art again. Also I suppose I could maybe show you some pictures from the opera that propelled my nervous breakdown if I had taken any. What, I was busy losing my goddamn mind.