Neurotic Owl

flying through clouds of uncertainty on wings of existential dread

Neurotic Owlphapebet, part. . . 6? I think? Wait, a,b,c,d. . .

 

 

 

Hooray!  It is six!  Which means that we’re almost halfway, since 26 letters = 13 posts.  I will be sad when this mini-project ends.noK

 

Which is why I sleep with my door open.  Just in case.  (Also, honestly, because the cat sleeps on my bed when he isn’t marauding through the apartment like a herd of tiny wildebeests, and I don’t want to block his litterbox access or wake up 7,000,0000,0000 times a night because he’s mewing pathetically to be let out.)

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Do you get that feeling when you’re on top of something tall, that weird little impulse to leap that scares you pantsless?  It’s not suicidal, I don’t think — I know what that feels like, anyway — it just seems to be this thing built into some humans, maybe all humans?  I haven’t asked all humans, so no idea.  I have heard a few other people describe it, so it’s not just me.

Speaking of not just me (topic #3, yo), I happened to look up needle phobia on Wikipedia a few days ago for reasons, and even though the Wikipedia is not an acceptable source of scholarly research, it had this:

‘Resistive

Resistive fear of needles occurs when the underlying fear involves not simply needles or injections but also being controlled or restrained. It typically stems from repressive upbringing[citation needed] or poor handling of prior needle procedures i.e. with forced physical or emotional restraint.

This form of needle phobia affects around 20% of those afflicted. Symptoms include combativeness, high heart rate coupled with extremely high blood pressure, violent resistance, avoidance and flight. The suggested treatment is psychotherapy, teaching the patient self-injection techniques or finding a trusted health care provider.’

Which describes ME, y’all.  Do you have any idea how comforting it is to see a precise description of your weirdness in a format that shows that, while it’s reasonably rare, other people have the exact same experience as you?  I’ve said for years that my needle issue is primarily about control, which is why it was exacerbated when they started having to have orderlies hold me down, and why nowadays, after much excellent behavioral therapy, I can get done what needs to get done if the nurse stops at each step and asks me if he/she can continue.  I do also have a deep-seated horror about foreign items/substances under my skin ,which complicates the injection problem, but control and feeling trapped and like I would die if the needle touched me was the biggest issue, and that’s pretty well in hand now.

Long post today, but now you’ll be spared hearing the exact same story when I inevitably draw my little owl getting a shot later in the alphabet!

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